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coming back from war....

06/3/25

its been a while huh... oops!!

so a buuuuunch of stuff has happened since i last updated my blog, and actually since ive even updated my site at all, so ill debrief you on what happened and why i was gone!!!

FIRSTLY if ypu remember from my last blogpost, i said i was gonna be busy with my billion competitions and tests at school and BOY was i right!!! to be honest i feel like i totally bombed all my tests- and to be real i feel like i really flopped when it comes to mygrades too... BUT that doesnt matter anymore cuz i GRADUATED!!! YAYYYY!!! thats ALSO why ive been super busy.. who knew graduating was so much work!! >.<

in other news, update on what i talked about last post aka my crush!! IM OVER HIM NOW!!! YAYYY!!! AFTER LIKE FOUR MONTHS!!!! tbh it was a pretty turbulent process... a little bit after making my last post i came to terms with the fact that pining for him wasnt gonna change anything and that i needed to let him go...which is easier said than done cuz i still liked him a bunch SO i started convincing myself that i hate him and focusing on his flaws to cancel out my feelings for him!!! which i dont think is healthy but oh well!! but ya in general i just kinda stopped centering my life around him, which i hadnt really realized before. i would dress up more nicely on the days id see him more, try to get interested in stuff he liked even tho i didnt like that stuff,, and id do a bunch of more things like that,,, basically i was living for him and not for me. but after a while of conciously trying to NOT do those things, it became a lot easier to let him go. and tbh i became a lot less miserable!! it worked!! and im okay with just being friends now!!! ofc, i dont think the feelings i had before are completely gone. if i think about it too hard i feel like theres still something there, but its much easier to live with now, even if i feel a little bittersweet about it. and im even on friendly terms with his new boyfriend now!! haha T~T

ANYWAY since i graduated, summer started so i can dedicate more time to this site now!! YAYYY!!! i'll keep updating when i can but i cant promise consistency since i wanna try spending as much time with my friends b4 we leave for college ToT i think(?) ill have enough free time in college to keep updating frequently but i really dont know so we'll see how that works out... ANYWAY as always check out the rest of my site and ill see you l8r!!! BYEBYE!!!!

FIRST POST!!!

03/31/25

HIHI!!!

this is like my first blogpost, like EVER, so that's exciting!! ik a lot of people get their first blogging exposure from tumblr n stuff, and i did want to do that but i totally chickened out... i thought about blogging on spacehey too but im still wayy too scared T^T so im getting my start here on neocities since theres no likes... no share button... no comments... no pressure!!! so im just gonna be talkin on here about whatever :P

speaking of whatever!! heres something completely unrelated!!! i LOVE love and romance and all that cute stuff, so ive had a bunch of periods in my life where ive been like "sighhh i dont like anyone right now...i sure wish i had a crush on someone..." but BOY i did not know the storm that was coming. i've had a crush on this person. for OVER A YEAR!!! IT USUALLY DOESNT STAY THAT LONG!!! and yk, at first it was cute n sweet n nice thinking "hehe what if he liked me back >//<" but the gradual realization that no, he in fact doesn't, has been HORRIBLE!!!!!!! AND REALIZING HE LIKES SOMEONE ELSE HAS BEEN WORSE!!!!!!! im JUST barely starting to get over it (if you couldn't tell! haha!) and its been a month and a HALFFFFF!!!! WHY DID I WANT THIS!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!! i would NOT wish this upon my worst enemy (˃̣̣̥ᯅ˂̣̣̥) ya so in conclusion never get a crush on anyone ever okay thank you!!

in other news, i probably wont be updating this site as much as i want to in the coming weeks, since i'll be subjected to 1 BILLION competitions and 1 BILLION tests at school that won't be over till MAYY TᴖT so just keep that in mind!! and if i do work on this website before then (which i probably will...) know i AM procrasinating ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) anyway, that's gonna be all for today!! if you want somewhere else to go, look for the cool websites button at the bottom of the right sidebar!! OKBYEBYE!!!!!!!!!